i don’t think i will ever be happy with the way i look. i hate that the most about myself.
i am getting ready to go out with my bf. we were thinking of going to wonderland so i was putting on some shorts and i just want to cry and never leave my house. i am sooooo bloated right now. it’s ridiculous how bloated my stomache got in the last two hours. on top of the 6 months pregnant look i am sporting right now, my legs are covered in soooooo much cottage cheese it’s disgusting. i try so hard every day not to be negative towards myself, but some times it gets too much for me to handle. right now is one of those moments. i am definitely not going to wonderland, or wearing shorts today. i need to go for a very very long walk, that’s uphill.
TIP
heat up your food extra hot if you plan on eating your meal in front of the tv. this really helps you to eat a bit slower and register what you’re eating.
bored and now i am starting to feel hungry. time is passing by fairly quickly. i didn’t think i ate like 2.5hrs ago. i have some watermelon and mango in the fridge, but i don’t know if i should make a smoothie, or if i should just have the fruit as is.
feeling kinda tired. maybe i should nap for 30mins. wow this feeling of having nothing to do and no work is really strange :S:S
i lost another pound!!! at 164 this morning. YES!!!!!! i am getting so excited to be getting closer and closer to 140. i know that’s a big # but i fit into size 6 without struggling. i honestly just want to fit into my clothes again. i have sooooo much stuff in my closet and i can’t fit into anything because i am so fat right now. i am also super excited to be 140 again because it will mean i am that much closer to having my super fit and toned body that i have always wanted.
hello hello :)
so i went to work and my immediate supervisor said i could go home since it’s my last two days. so woohoo!!! this means i got paid for 32hrs this week that i didn’t even work. sometimes it’s great being in the management position. so now i have from today until june 11th to lose as much weight as possible before i start my new job and the stress of having my own store kills me.
my shoulder and neck and back are still hurting. they feel really stiff and make it really hard to move around properly. i don’t know what i am going to do. i think i am going to do turbo fire later on at night time. hopefully my muscles will start to feel better. i should get myself some lakota. it always works when i am in pain.
good night!
okay darlings. it’s bed time for me!!!! i have work in the morning :( i mean really i don’t know why i even care whether i go or not because it’s my 2nd last day. but i guess for the sake of being a professional…and possibly so i can call hr and get them to do my exit interview. ufff.
have a great day tomorrow. smile and drink lots of water. i’ll probably post during my lunch break or something
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